I saw the signs

[chalice35]

It's so strange, my brain on depression. How both obvious and elusive my symptoms are. I can feel the deepest pit of sorrow at one point, and then feel very close to fully human at the next "check in" point. Clicking along ok for a while and then, seemingly out of nowhere and for no recognizable reason, the bottom will drop out and I'll be fighting suicidal ideology with everything I have.It's fucking maddening, and makes the every day question"How's it going/how are you today" way harder to answer than it was ever meant to be.